choose peace

We don't see the things the way they are. We see things the way WE are.

Anais Nin

It’s Monday morning and I’m starting to feel normalized. It was quite a weekend. My emotions were all over the place starting with a visit to see Norma in the hospital on Friday. She had a very large kidney stone and they had to go in a do a procedure which they tried to avoid because of her age. It took a lot out of her and now I don’t know how much longer she will have with us. I had no idea and was taken by surprise when I saw her. It was very emotional and challenging. I then had to wake up at 4 am to head to Big Bear for my first shadowing as a facilitator. I was so nervous, worried that I would forget something. We worked with a group of 30 kids, all who have lost a parent. We were there to provide some challenges and most all for them to have fun. It was a success and felt great to be a part of.

I am starting to see maybe how this new endeavor will link in with coaching. I am starting to connect the dots. I feel like it’s starting to all make sense.
I am also realizing how much I have been living outside of my comfort zone. It’s natural to want to be comfortable and to do things that make you feel comfortable. But when you don’t step outside that comfort zone you don’t stretch. You have the most growth when you are uncomfortable. When you have a conversation that you are afraid to have or you do something you have never done before it heightens your awareness and makes you build new muscle. When I belay people on the high ropes course, I get to help them overcome something. They are completely out of their comfort zone and are challenged to go beyond what they thought possible. It’s amazing to facilitate and at the same time it challenges my ability.

I feel great which is sort of funny to say with so much going on around me. It just goes to show you that circumstances do not have to define you. I feel like I’m doing it. I’m walking the path I want to walk and as scary as it can be I feel empowered that I chose it.
I am so grateful for Agape.