being vulnerable

Awareness is the greatest agent for change. Eckhart Tolle

If I’m going to write then I have to say it all, right? I can’t hold back simply because I’m concerned of how I will be perceived or how it will be taken.
I’m challenged right now. My ego is up in arms. The energy in the house is askew. And I’m still committed to the process of loving this relationship all the way through to its next evolution. It’s hard to stay centered in the midst of such change but I believe I can do it. She is moving out on the first and I want to available to this process. I believe that our love and commitment to one another can move us thru this transition in a way that helps us grow.

I just stepped aside from my blog to ask about the heaviness in the air. It was so uncomfortable. She spoke and then I spoke and we were both stuck. There’s that moment in a conversation when you just want to run from it and well I felt that every few minutes. You might be asking why would I put myself through that? We broke up so why engage in these conversations. I think these conversations are the key to my growth. It’s easy to walk away. I love this woman and I spent more than three years of my life with her. We trigger each other and we want to break through that. Who I am today is a different person because of this relationship. I have gained so much and have had to break through a lot of my own fears. I am so grateful for this process and to have a partner that’s willing to do it different. If you put your ego aside so much more will open up to you. Try it. Make today a day that you create with love and vulnerability to discover more about yourself. Let me know how it goes.