be yourself

“To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.”
 Ralph Waldo Emerson

The greatest gift you can give yourself is the opportunity to be yourself and not a copy of something else.  You are here with your own specific blueprint and your only job in life is discover that and live it.  There is no one like you. 

I am so grateful for the opportunity to continue my education and more grateful that my ego didn’t get in the way of going back to school.  It’s not always easy to stick to your guns but so rewarding when you do.  I hope you stay true to your path and remember that you are unique and can do anything you set your mind to.

the great ride

“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.”
 Arthur Ashe

10 miles today.  Still can’t believe it sometimes.  My body is sore but my mind is clear.  I feel clear.  I have started where I am, I am using what I have and I am doing what I can.  It can be easy to get thrown off track sometimes or feel that you’re just not good enough or incapable.  If we can learn to stop listening to our heads and the fear and the nay sayer that is ourselves, that part of us that wants us to stay put and not try anything new we can have it anything we set our mind to.  I know I keep saying this but it really is bit by bit, piece by piece.  Just like there is no magic pill to take to make you lose weight.  You lose weight when you decide you don’t won’t carry it anymore.  You change your ways and the result is you lose weight.  If you want to make money then you decide you are willing to do what it takes to increase your income.  These are decisions that we make to commit to something.  It’s not a mystery or random, it’s intention.  If you want it then go after it but you having to willing to do the work and be flexible for what shows up.  Life is a great ride and the more you can appreciate the nuances, the more you will get out of it.

Today I am grateful for Cecilia.

determination

You’ve got to get out of bed every morning with determination if you’re going to go to bed with satisfaction.

This morning I woke up feeling tired and feeling a bit defeated but I kept moving.  I didn’t give in and I could have, theres nothing wrong with that, right?  There’s that fine line between pushing thru and deciding to hang back.  For me I can’t stop.  When I got on that Precor today I wanted to get back off but I didn’t.  This is new for me.  It’s a different type of determination.  I am realizing we all have those things that come natural to us and then those things that pain us greatly like exercise or eating well or the idea of quitting smoking or whatever it is that you want to be on the other side of.  For me its to have exercise be a part of my life, like breathing.  Unfortunately it doesn’t come as natural.  But as I start my 6th week of committed exercise where I actually leave sweating, I am starting to see my mind change.  I am starting to feel the habit forming and it feels pretty amazing especially in the midst of that first mile where I want to quit but it’s just not an option.  It’s starting to spread into my life.  This idea of personal commitment is becoming something I want more of.  I want to feel good and look good.  I want to make the most of this body that I have been given.  I am so grateful that I have all my limbs and an able body, I want to use it.  So thank you for letting me share and thank you for whoever is reading my blog.  I hope you get something out of it that benefits your life in some way.

smile


“You can start with nothing. And out of nothing, and out of no way, a way will be made”
Rev. Dr. Michael Bernard Beckwith

This is the moment.  This is it.  The beginning.  This is the moment to begin again.  Past is past and you get to reinvent yourself.  You get to accept all that is and all that isn't and find freedom in that.  Being a victim doesn't suit you anymore, living in past will only bring you more past and living for someone else has depleted you enough.  This is your time to shine, to love, to give freely and to be at peace.  Breathe that in.  Live today like its yours, look for life's wonderment, and focus on what makes you smile.

TodayI am grateful for simplicity.

happy birthday mom

The quieter you become the more you can hear.


Listen more and talk less.  Take in whats around you.  Breathe in the good and breathe out your anxieties, your fears and your frustrations.  This is my favorite moment, listening to beautiful music, feeling the stillness, ready to embrace this new day.

I feel overcome with gratitude thinking about my mother.  It’s her birthday today. I am so blessed with our relationship and friendship that we have.  She’s my rock and biggest supporter.  I love you mom

control will get you nowhere...

“If you want to reach a state of bliss, then go beyond your ego and the internal dialogue. Make a decision to relinquish the need to control, the need to be approved, and the need to judge. Those are the three things the ego is doing all the time. It's very important to be aware of them every time they come up.”
Deepak Chopra

If you didn't need to be in control, had no desire to judge others and didn't seek anyones approval, what would life be like?  It seems that so much in life in consumed by these three actions.  It’s all ego and if you can stay still long enough you can observe these actions as they come up and want to determine your mood, your actions, and your quality of life.  This need for approval or need to judge keeps your attention away from the now, they keep you focused on what doesn't matter.  You can’t control what life throws you and you surely can’t control another person so the energy spent doing it is useless.  This is your life and the only thing you can control is you.  You have a choice about what you do and what you don’t do, so choose wisely.  Life your life like you mean it and stop blaming people for where you are.  You got yourself here, celebrate the good and accept what is and then maybe you can move in a different direction.

Today I am grateful that I can build my own computer.  I am blessed and have everything I need.
 

acceptance of this moment

Whatever the present moment contains, accept is as if you had chosen it. Always work with it, not against it. Make it your friend and ally, not your enemy. This will miraculously transform your whole life.
Eckhart Tolle

As I continue on this path of writing for 30 days, I notice how it affects every area of my life.  The clarity and light on one thing seems to shine on all things.  I am learning to focus and it brings up so much struggle inside because I resist it so much.  In writing, I get to sit and reflect and meditate and breathe into the stillness.  In this stillness I see that everything is perfect in its imperfection.  I am grateful for the space and time to work thru this stage in my life.  I am grateful for the support.  I am grateful for this now moment.

work it

Nothing will work unless you do.
Maya Angelou


Short and to the point. 

Sitting back an waiting for something to happen is like putting a quarter in a vending machine and waiting for the dollar item to drop down.  It’s not going to happen.  You can hope and wish but it’s not going to drop.  I think we do that in life, where we wait for something to happen without doing the work for it to happen.  I think this whole Precor exercise experience is that for me.  I always half-assed it, did enough just in case anyone was watching or enough to say I did it but now I’m experiencing something new with this commitment.  It’s not about anyone else, it’s about me and what I am capable of.  It’s almost gotten to the point where it’s easy.  I show up and there's a beginning, a middle and an end and I do it.  I am seeing the potential for the rest of my life thru this exercise because its more than training for my body its training for my mind.  I think this is the key, the part where we retrain our mind to believe in our potential, to believe that we can succeed and then having the will power to go thru with it.  Again I feel like my own guinea pig but in an area where I think I had resigned.  I now feel like anything is possible if I can do 2 hours on the Precor.  I think its helping me to reprogram my opinion of myself and more importantly reinvent who I am and what I am capable of.  I recommend doing the work, whatever that work is that you thought you couldn’t do.  I am here to tell you that you can and more importantly I am here to support you thru it.  Today take a stand for your life and say no to business as usual.

Today I am grateful for movement.  I feel like I am getting someone and hopefully soon will no longer have computer parts everywhere.  I am ready to let go of that chapter of my life.

time

“Time is more valuable than money. You can get more money, but you cannot get more time.”
 Jim Rohn

So the question is, what are you doing with your time?  Are you wasting it hoping for a better tomorrow or are you creating a better tomorrow? 
I feel like I am making good use of my time but I am struggling with feeling like I’m on a treadmill not getting anywhere.  I am working out harder than ever and writing and working on creating an inviting workspace, yet nothing feels like its coming together.  I think this is the moment where quitting seems like the best option.  I don’t see the results I want so I want to give up.  But I know I can’t because then I will never get what I say I want.  It’s this moment of struggle that you have to ask yourself if you really want what you say you want.  There’s a saying that as you get closer to your goal that everything will come in its way to distract you and try to stop you, this is when you must rely on will power and determination. 
Bit by bit, day by day, my goal is to break old bad habits and create new empowering ones.  Today I am grateful for the opportunity in the struggle. I am committed to making good use of my time.

blessings

Appreciate what you have, before time teaches you to appreciate what you had.

There is so much to be grateful for.  If we spend more time in gratitude then in wishing we had or wishing something was different, life will be more enjoyable. 

I am talking to myself.  I often am hoping to get thru the next hurdle only to set my sight on the next while never enjoying exactly where I am.  I often feel like once I get this next thing done then I will feel complete.  It’s a trap that keeps you from being here.  So today I am acknowledging that I am complete with everything just the was it is.  I have so much to be grateful for in my life.  I have a great partner, a wonderful home, best dogs in the world, friends that I cherish and a family that I love, and that is a blessing.

stillness brings peace


Learn to become still. And to take your attention away from what you don't want, and all the emotional charge around it, and place your attention on what you wish to experience"
Michael Beckwith

In the stillness lies the answer.  I can hear this over and over and I can forget over and over.  Everyday is a new day to remember and forget.  But in this stillness we can get invigorated.  We can remember.  Having our attention on everything that doesn't work in our lives doesn't bring peace, it brings anxiety.  Everyday we are faced with the challenge of being our truth or giving into our past.  Everyday we get to make a choice whether we will step up and make something of our lives or hideout.  And if we choose to dim out light, tomorrow is a new day to choose better.  It’s never too late and it’s never too difficult.  The hard part is in our head because only in our head is it not possible.  Life is full of so many possibilities and if we learn to become still we can tap into them. 

Today I am grateful for Agape.

your story


"You are the designer of your destiny; you are the author of your story."
Lisa Nichols

No one else writes your story. You are the producer, the director and the actor of your story.  You make all final decisions.  You make all final edits.  There is no one else to blame for your outcome.  It’s a powerful place to acknowledge this gift of life.  You can do anything you choose at any moment, yet often we feel like we have no choices.  We feel stuck.  That is an illusion.  You are stuck because you believe you are stuck.  In reality you are limitless.  Your potential is untapped when you believe that you have no choices or feel directionless.  Who you are is a direct reflection of your thoughts about yourself...so what are you thinking?  Most of the time its not even your own thoughts.  They were handed down and you graciously accepted them.  Just remember this is your life and you can rewrite this story.  Don’t let fear stop you.

Today I am grateful for my space to write.  I am grateful that writing everyday has become easier.  I am grateful for the 30 day challenge.  I am grateful that I found the Precor and my show.  I feel good.

peace of mind


"For peace of mind, resign as general manager of the universe.”
anonymous


Friday seems like the perfect day to let go of being manager of the universe.   When I can sit back and be quiet and listen more and hold back the need to interject my two cents, it is more peaceful.  There is this need in us to manage all operations, to want to control others actions. It would really serve us to learn how to turn that off.  Controlling someone else or trying to control the actions of someone else is energy spent that could be put to some good use, like changing our own lives.  When we take the focus off of them, whoever them is we must look at ourselves and frankly its not always that comfortable.  It’s not easy to clean up our own mess or be responsible for all of the choices we make daily.  It’s not easy, but it’s necessary if you want peace in your life.
Be conscious of how many times today that you want to control someone else, control a situation or simply complain about anything...Can you accept what is?  Can you be ok with other people running their own lives?  Can you be ok with taking responsibility for yours?  Something to think about.  Today I am going to stay in my own lane.

Today I am grateful for the peace of mind I feel in this moment. 

say more

“Fear less, hope more; Whine less, breathe more; Talk less, say more; Hate less, love more; And all good things are yours.”
anonymous

Talk less, say more.  I like that a lot.  We often talk so much but say so little.  Our heads go a million miles a minute and maybe instead of racing with the thoughts in our heads it would be better if we listened more and spoke of the wisdom we receive from taking a pause, not filling the space with judgment or gossip.  If we treated our words as precious words that mean something, would we speak so harshly?  I think we take for granted the impact of our words.  I think when we complain or blame we are merely giving our power away.  You always have a choice when you speak, to either tear down or build up.  What do you choose?  How do you choose what to say?  What do you want to accomplish?  These are important questions on your quest to live in peace.  Your words are you, so choose them wisely. 

Today I am grateful for the opportunities that always show up in my life.

the stuff

"Every time you are tempted to react in the same old way, ask if you want to be a prisoner of the past or a pioneer of the future."
Deepak Chopra

I choose pioneer of the future. Right now I am facing my prisoner of the past.  I have decided to go thru boxes and crates that have been stored in various places containing computer stuff, personal stuff and just more stuff.  It’s the most confronting thing for me, the stuff.  All the bits and pieces in random homes and not knowing what truly is important.  This is where I get stuck.  The rest of the house is in order but this one room which is the room for me to do my school work and work in general is anything but organized, comfortable and inviting. 
I feel like when you have spaces like this in your life, whether it be a drawer or a shelf or under the bed, you clutter up the energy in your life.  The more you can let go and simplify, the more your head is freed up to pioneer the future.

Today, I am grateful for stuff to go thru.  I am grateful that I get to make different choices.


better than you used to be

"you don't need to be better than any one else you just need to be better than you used to be"
Wayne W. Dyer

 It we strive to be our best and do our best then there is nothing more we can ask of ourselves.  We are constantly evolving and growing.  The moment we become stagnant is the moment to ask yourself, what are you afraid of?  Most of the time the answer is failure.  We don't want to fail.  We don't want to be embarrassed.  We don't want to ........, you fill in the blank.  Whatever is stopping you from moving forward is in your head.  You can do anything you set your mind to. 
I just proved to myself I could go the distance.  I was on the Precor for 2 hours straight and that is something I never thought I could do.  But you know what, little by little I got there.  I think that is the story of life, little by little you will get there.  You just have to put the little in.  People was to go from A to Z without the other letters but the reality is that you need the whole alphabet.  you need the journey to be able to appreciate the destination.  So whatever it is your striving for, you will get there.  Don't give up, just put in little by little.


Today I am grateful for my legs, that I can run and move about freely. 







grateful

Today no matter where I'm going, no matter what I'm doing, no matter who I'm doing it with, it is my dominant intent to look for and find things that feel good when I see them, when I hear them, when I smell them, when I taste them, when I touch them.
It is my dominant intent to solicit from experience and exaggerate and talk about and revel in the best of what I see around me here and now.

Abraham Hicks

I got off to a late start writing today but I kept this quote in my head and new I would get back to it.  Sometimes your day doesn't go how you want it to go but you can choose how you want to perceive it and how you react to it.  I could complain about all of things that went wrong today but where would that get me.  At every turn I have an opportunity to see what I want to see.  I can call it bad or I can call it just what it is.  So much of our anxiety and frustration comes from our determination to find the difficult in life or to complain.  If we could refrain from harsh criticism for others and more importantly, ourselves we could live that peaceful life that we are looking for. 
It’s not that the world needs to change, it’s our eyes that need changing.  The world is occurring and how it occurs is up to our own interpretations.  The bottom line, you have a say so about your life and how it is for you right now. 

Today I am grateful that I can get back to this place and feel grateful.

acceptance


"It's not your job to like me - it's mine"
Byron Katie

This quote just spoke to me today.  It’s short and to the point.  I think if we stopped spending so much time seeking approval and gave it to ourselves, we could be at peace.  Sounds easy right.  How many times are you in a situation where you're feeling like you need someone’s approval to feel better about yourself.  
This idea of outward acceptance is such a trap.  If you really loved you- and accepted you for where you and were kind to yourself then maybe the need for approval would diminish.  I once heard that how we can judge others is nothing compared to the beating that we give ourselves.  I’m not good enough, I’m not enough, I’m unlovable, I’m ugly, I’m not creative, I’m fat.....all of these things that roll off our tongues like nothing- are affirmations that we just aren’t good enough.  And that is a farce.  These judgements on ourselves are based on expectations that aren’t real.  They might have agreement but they aren’t real.  If we could all only embrace the perfection that we are, the perfection that life is.  It doesn't mean it’s easy or seem fair at times but its completely in time, on time and moving us exactly where we are supposed to be.  Life and death is a part of the process and learning to move with it and accept and refrain from judgment is the road to a peaceful existence.

Today I grateful that I am going to Agape.  I am grateful for the gift that that is in my life.

stillness

Learn to become still. And to take your attention away from what you don't want, and all the emotional charge around it, and place your attention on what you wish to experience"
Michael Beckwith

Everything we need to become who we want to be is found in the stillness.  In the stillness lies our truth.  When I quiet my mind I find my strength.  When we wrap ourselves up in the busy-ness of the day, we may get a lot done but we rarely touch upon our sacred self.  This part of us that contains our wisdom and grace is starving for our attention.  When I strengthen this part of me I am noticing that the superficial concerns in my life are becoming less charged.  So where ever you are....Stop and take a moment to breathe and be still.  Sit in all that you have to be grateful for.  Smile.  Let the thoughts go that are occupying your mind and scheduling your day.  Just for this moment let your self be blissful and grateful.  Give yourself permission to put your worries aside.  Just for this moment be still.

Today I am grateful for the stillness.

replace not erase


Those old habits don't have to be erased, they just become replaced by a new habit that is more in vibrational harmony with who you are and what you want.
Abraham Hicks

Oooh I liked that, replaced not erased.  I think when we focus on stopping something we don’t want to do anymore we remain fixed on the habit and therefore continue giving it energy.  When you create a new habit you simply have less time for the old one.  It goes to the old saying that what you focus on grows.  Like I spoke about earlier this week, this idea of someday that doesn't even really exist, the more we focus on accomplishing things someday the more we are affirming that it will never happen. 
I decided I want things to start happening now.  I don’t want to live in someday. I want to create new habits.  So my next addition to my 30 day commitment is that I will meditate everyday.

Today I am grateful for the time to create these new habits so that when I start back with   school I will a foundation for my practices.

use what you have

“Start where you are. Use what you have. Do what you can.”
Arthur Ashe

It’s no secret that I love TV.  I love getting caught up in shows and anticipating the return of a series.  It’s my guilty pleasure.  I know I could be making better use of my time but for now I am not willing to let go.  Recently I discovered while at the gym that a series was playing that I had never seen.  I was suddenly caught up in the show and lost track of how long I had been on the Precor. (fantastic machine)  I found myself wanting to go back the next day to continue the series because yes it was playing in sequence.  So here I am almost 4 weeks later averaging 20 miles a week.  I was the, maybe 30 minutes girl then off to something else to try to focus on.  Now I can’t get off the machine until the show is over and then I end up watching the next one because they show it back to back.  I can’t believe myself.  I’m actually watching people come and go and I’m still going.  I feel like I tapped into something that was already here and I just never thought of it.  It’s the ultimate, “use what you have”  It might sound silly to you but it’s changing my life.  So the question is, how many things have you not thought of?  Instead of getting fixed on what you don’t have, look at what you do have.  Work with what you have and then things start opening up for you.  You just have to be willing to stop complaining and start finding things to be grateful for.

Today I am grateful for that Precor and the show Las Vegas for giving me the platform to push myself beyond anything I thought I was capable of.

when?

"If not now, when?"

If we keep putting off all the things we want to do in life then it seems you will have a life that you put off.  I put off going back to school until I realized it was never going to happen if I didn’t just do it.  It’s never going to be the exact right time.  How many things are you putting off?  I kept putting off exercise, thinking I would get to it someday, that someday I would really commit. Someday might as well be called no day because someday is not even on the calendar.  I think it was created to give us something to call the day that we never really want to get to or the day that we think will magically fall upon us.  And on that day everything will happen. So I say eliminate someday from your vocabulary and instead replace it with an actual day, that right there will change how you relate to what it is you say you want.  If you don’t want to do something, then learn how to say you don’t want to do it.  If you say you are going to do something then learn how to follow thru.  It’s your word and the more you do what you say you are going to do  the more you will be living the life that you say you want.  When I hold my self accountable, its amazing how my day transforms.

Today I am grateful for the wonderful program that I am starting next month.  I am grateful for the support to be back in school.

the main thing

The main thing is to keep the main thing the main thing.
~ Steven Covey

It is so easy to get distracted and let something take your attention.  Focus is a big struggle of mine, to stay focused and on task.  The more I write and the more I exercise, the more I see clearly and how without these kinds of commitments my focus is not so sharp.  I have so many things going on in my head all the time and without some sort of direction I flounder.  It’s so powerful to commit to something yet everything in my being resist it.  Well I’m giving in to that at least today and I will strive for many tomorrows to come. 

It’s interesting that all it took was for someone to challenge me to do something for 30 days and that concept I seemed to wrap my head around.  It seemed manageable and something that my fear of failure could relax around.  Baby steps to live the life you say want, that’s what I say.  How many times do you say you want this or that but you’re not willing to do the steps, you’re not willing to fall, or feel awkward, or fail.  I started writing this blog a couple of years ago because I wanted to be a voice of support.  Life gives us so many chances to show up and be who we were born to be and I want to be a catalyst for you and me to recognize it and embrace it.  We all need to be reminded that we have what it takes and that the voice saying we can’t, is just our fears speaking.  The truth is that we are powerful being measure and living small doesn’t suit us.

Today I am grateful for the quiet, for the peace and for this amazing climate I live in.

having it all


"You have everything you need for complete peace and total happiness right now."
Wayne W. Dyer

It’s hard to really hear that sometimes because I know for myself that I will think, yea if I just get this one thing sorted out or I just need to figure this out And then it’s all gonna be good.  It’s such a practice of stillness and appreciation to be able to completely stop and acknowledge that I have it all right now.  I don’t need more to be more.  I think I need to say that again, I don’t need more to be more.
It makes me stop in my tracks.  It makes me feel peaceful and then I get an anxious feeling.  I want to fight it.  I some how let the feeling of being incomplete dictate my self worth instead of acknowledging that it will never all be complete. My life will never be wrapped in a neat box which says my life is in order and I have arrived.  “Life is about the journey and not the destination” has never been so prevalent.  What a test, to be able to stop in middle of everything, in the middle of panic, in the middle hurrying to get something done, in the middle of breakdown- to be able to say, “I have everything I need for complete and total happiness right now in this moment with life just the way it is.  Now that’s powerful.  It is a reminder that all of this stuff we are so busy with is not who we are, it’s just our stuff.  And stuff is just stuff.

Today I grateful for the gentle reminders everywhere that life is an adventure.

freedom

"Can you look without the voice in your head commenting, drawing conclusions, comparing, or trying to figure something out?" 
Eckhart Tolle

Its a challenge to just be an observer.  It’s a challenge to refrain from judgement.  It’s so automatic that most of the time we don’t even realize we are doing it.  Today for me is about being an observer.  I want to be child like and take it all in.  I don’t want to know the answers or figure anything out.  I want to move with the day and let the day move me.

Today I am grateful for the freedom to do so.  Today I am grateful for all that I have in my life that allows me such freedom.

work of art

If you knew how much work went into it, you would not call it genius.  – Michelangelo

This quote came to mind yesterday as I was at the horse races watching the excitement of the race and feeling the exhilaration that goes with it.  I observed this moment when a horse wins and the excitement that surrounds and how it all looks so easy.  This winning moment just like a work of art or final product like a great movie, is the completion of something which took so much effort and many trials and errors.  It is easy to be a spectator and think, I want that.  I want to win.  I want to create something great, yet when it’s time to do the work we make excuses and put in half the effort.  This 30 day challenge is such a great gift I have given myself.  In the midst of my sisters visit or a busy weekend, my commitment is my commitment.  It means something and I feel stronger for owning it and recognizing the significance of my word and more importantly the work of art that I am creating. 

You can always find support to stay the same because people ultimately are afraid of failing so it’s easier to not try and to remain the same.  And if everyone remains the same then no one has to feel uncomfortable for what they are not striving for.  So just look around you and notice if you are being supported to be your highest self or sitting in a place where fear is running your life.  It’s never to late to change and make a commitment to do better.  You have what it takes.  Go out and shine today.

Today I am grateful for the opportunity to surf as often as I want.  I am grateful for the gifts of the ocean which brings me so much joy.

Commitment and Intention

Begin somewhere. You cannot build a reputation on what you intend to do. - Liz Smith


This month of writing is such a great exercise.  It’s amazing how once you say you’re going to do something, the ease of doing it drops away.  I guess it’s like anything you want to achieve, in the face of doing it suddenly you're lazy or indifferent, maybe even resentful for having to do it.  I guess that’s why commitment is a trigger word.  No one wants to feel cornered but it’s funny how we can corner ourselves.

The question is-- what do you want in your life?  Who do you want to be, what do you want to look like, how do you want to feel?  So you can ask yourself all of these questions and then for example if you want to be healthy and fit,  you have to eat better and exercise.  It’s not magic yet once it’s time to commit to doing something about it, you find every reason not to.  This is what I am really focusing on.  This moment when you choose to not honor your own word.  It’s powerful and maybe sends a signal that you can’t.  As I go through this process of writing, I am also making some other changes in my life like exercise and eating better.  I guess I want to experiment with the power of commitment and just being conscious of my choices and which ones honor who I say I want to be.  It’s a powerful way to look at it, because I have a say so about who I become.  It’s bit by bit and the bit is everything.  There are no quick fixes, there are only slow and steady changes.

Today I am grateful for this bit and being able to choose well for myself.   I am grateful that I was able to begin again.  I am also grateful for finding a way to exercise that feels good and motivating at the same time.

staying with it

Become a possibilitarian. No matter how dark things seem to be or actually are, raise your sights and see the possibilities -- always see them, for they're always there. - Norman Vincent Peale

I needed this quote today.  I started my day without blogging, spent most the day in the car and the rest dealing with computers.  I’m so over it. But I knew I was coming home to write.  I knew I had a commitment larger than my frustrations or momentary set backs.  I’m committed to this process.  I’m committed to exercising and it’s good to remember that in the face of frustration and road blocks, that I can be a possibilitarian.

I am grateful for my sister visiting and having an opportunity to stop and enjoy life with her.

remember

"Obstacles are things a person sees when he takes his eyes off his goal."
anonymous

This is a good one for me today.  When my life seems like its full of more obstacles then possibilities, I need to remember this.  It’s hard when life seems against you to step back and gain perspective.  It’s so easy to get wrapped up and forget that you have a choice about how things play out.  You have a choice to see things the way you are seeing them.  This is why meditation is so great because it forces you to sit still and quiet the mind.  Only in a quiet mind will you find your way to a peaceful life.  The idea that the more you do and the more you check off your list the closer you get to it, whatever it is, is a farce.  You get to have some completion which is great but ultimately in the midst of anything and any tough time, to be able to find your center and know that what is before you is merely your path.  Don’t get hooked on momentary set backs.  It’s a process and the more you can smile through it and be unattached yet focused on your goal the more peaceful and purposeful you life will be. 
I hearing my words and remembering.  I think I took my eyes off my goal.  I think I forgot what my goal is.  I am grateful to this blog to help me remember.  I hope it helps you to remember too. 

inspire change

And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. Nelson Mandela

I have realized that there are two places I can be, one is waiting for the answer and the other is to become the answer.  When I sit back and wait and hold back my enthusiasm and give in to the burdens of life, I might as well be catatonic.  When I shine my light, I immediately see the lights around me shine.  Is it my eyes that change or do I inspire change.  Does it matter?  I know that when I touch the place in me that is a well of transformational bliss, I can hardly contain myself.  I am having glimpses of that when I sit to write.  My intention is to bathe in it. 

Today, I feel grateful for the simplicity.    I am laying the groundwork and becoming more relaxed into the process that I have set forth. The part of me that wants it all now is quieter.  I am grateful for the peace.

Intention

"Let go of what you think life should be so you can experience the life you have."
Rhonda Britten

Here I am day one of my August commitment to write everyday no matter what.  So excuse me if I stumble a bit.  I just have felt so out of whack and feeling like I can’t quite get out of my head and on to paper.  I will keep typing and have an intention to break through my own self doubt, my own walls of sabotage.  I don’t think I am alone in this self defeating conversation.  It’s just amazing how you can be so clear in life and feel so impassioned only to come to a place of doubt.  I want to get angry when I feel it.  I want to just get myself back to the place where everything was crystal clear.  Then I remember that this is all part of it.  I remember when I place myself in situations where I am forced to stop, like in meditation yesterday I get it.  I was never so grateful for the silence.  I was thirsty and willing to sit still.  So this quote holds so much power for me today.  This part of me that wants to look ahead or get to the next chapter is stopped in my tracks, only to realize this is the rich part.  This struggle to get there or feel connected to myself, it’s only because I want to deny today or the feeling of uncertainty.  I am reminded that the closer I get to my true destiny the more road blocks I will experience and the more uncertain my mind will seem.  It’s funny how just writing about it gives me a sense of calm.
Today I am grateful for my amazing home and love I am surrounded with.  Peggy, LeeAnn, Crystal, Andrea, thank you for taking this journey with me.  Life will never be the same having met you.  I feel blessed.