Charles R. Swindoll : "We are all faced with a series of great opportunities brilliantly disguised as impossible situations."
I feel a little heavy today. Cecilia and I were sorting through our things last night. This isn’t easy. Everything is moving out on Sunday and its stirring up stuff for me. I’m so glad that we are on great terms and able to talk ourselves though this. I can tell her when I’m having a hard time and she can do the same and we can keep moving forward. This is one of those times that I can feel my sadness and excitement at the same time. I am able to recognize that I’m struggling with letting go but I know that something else is birthing inside me. We are both honoring ourselves and that’s pretty powerful. I am excited for both of us.
Today I am grateful for the peace I feel in the midst of sadness and the knowing that everything will be okay.
what is possible
Barbara De Angelis : "If you aren't good at loving yourself, you will have a difficult time loving anyone, since you'll resent the time and energy you give another person that you aren't even giving to yourself."
I had such an amazing experience last night. I was at agape and we had a guest speaker so I was already bummed that I wasn’t going to hear Rev Michael. Rev Barbara King took the stage and I was completely hit broadsided. I wasn’t expecting it and I think that was why it was so profound. I can’t really explain it other than the voice in my head was so loud judging and critiquing and then all of a sudden it was silent and I felt this amazing calm come over me. It was beautiful. I felt so peaceful.
It just brings to mind how often we have expectations or judgments rather, of how something will go and how often we miss out because we aren’t willing to try. It brings to mind the box again. We get comfortable in our box. We like to decorate it and call it home. And then we never want to leave it. Just remember that growth is on the outside of the box. Being in your comfort zone can be healing and revitalize you but it can also cause stagnation. Learn the balance and your life will blossom. You can have anything you want but you have to step outside and stretch and try new things and have the conversations that you’re afraid to have. If you do the things that scare you then all things become possible.
Today, I am grateful for the opportunities I have to stretch from who I thought I was to something even more than I thought possible.
I had such an amazing experience last night. I was at agape and we had a guest speaker so I was already bummed that I wasn’t going to hear Rev Michael. Rev Barbara King took the stage and I was completely hit broadsided. I wasn’t expecting it and I think that was why it was so profound. I can’t really explain it other than the voice in my head was so loud judging and critiquing and then all of a sudden it was silent and I felt this amazing calm come over me. It was beautiful. I felt so peaceful.
It just brings to mind how often we have expectations or judgments rather, of how something will go and how often we miss out because we aren’t willing to try. It brings to mind the box again. We get comfortable in our box. We like to decorate it and call it home. And then we never want to leave it. Just remember that growth is on the outside of the box. Being in your comfort zone can be healing and revitalize you but it can also cause stagnation. Learn the balance and your life will blossom. You can have anything you want but you have to step outside and stretch and try new things and have the conversations that you’re afraid to have. If you do the things that scare you then all things become possible.
Today, I am grateful for the opportunities I have to stretch from who I thought I was to something even more than I thought possible.
clarity
If you want to be successful, it's just this simple: Know what you're doing. Love what you're doing. And believe in what you're doing.
O.A. Battista
I feel like I’m floating, like I’m not touching the ground. I’ve been feeling this way ever since my training. When I say that- I don’t mean floating like on cloud 9, I mean more like I don’t feel the heaviness of life. It’s funny because I want question it like, where’s that heavy feeling I sure miss it. I don’t miss it. I like that I feel free. I like that I don’t feel burdened. I guess for the first time in a long time I am heading in a direction that I feel great about. I am seeing the possibilities.
I feel like Cecilia and I have made some major breakthroughs in our communication. She is moving out this weekend and it feels scary but at the same time we are moving through it and committed to our relationship in whatever form it takes. It’s interesting how a week ago we were in so much discomfort, the air was thick and we both wanted to avoid each other, but we kept talking and found common ground. It just makes you think, how often do you give up when something feels tough? It’s easy to say you broke up, move on, but the reality is this is a person I love, why else would we have chosen to be with each other. There’s so much here to learn by. We want to learn and we want to let go of all the things that hold us back in life. We are equally committed to this. So I guess the question for you is- Do you have relationships in your life that you are avoiding? Do you walk away because it’s easier? It’s easy to walk away from tough conversations but you don’t get the breakthroughs. You grow when you stretch; you grow when you walk through the discomfort.
I think I feel light because I feel clear. I still don’t have all the answers but I have honesty and I have direction and that feels like a million bucks.
Today I am grateful for being right where I am.
O.A. Battista
I feel like I’m floating, like I’m not touching the ground. I’ve been feeling this way ever since my training. When I say that- I don’t mean floating like on cloud 9, I mean more like I don’t feel the heaviness of life. It’s funny because I want question it like, where’s that heavy feeling I sure miss it. I don’t miss it. I like that I feel free. I like that I don’t feel burdened. I guess for the first time in a long time I am heading in a direction that I feel great about. I am seeing the possibilities.
I feel like Cecilia and I have made some major breakthroughs in our communication. She is moving out this weekend and it feels scary but at the same time we are moving through it and committed to our relationship in whatever form it takes. It’s interesting how a week ago we were in so much discomfort, the air was thick and we both wanted to avoid each other, but we kept talking and found common ground. It just makes you think, how often do you give up when something feels tough? It’s easy to say you broke up, move on, but the reality is this is a person I love, why else would we have chosen to be with each other. There’s so much here to learn by. We want to learn and we want to let go of all the things that hold us back in life. We are equally committed to this. So I guess the question for you is- Do you have relationships in your life that you are avoiding? Do you walk away because it’s easier? It’s easy to walk away from tough conversations but you don’t get the breakthroughs. You grow when you stretch; you grow when you walk through the discomfort.
I think I feel light because I feel clear. I still don’t have all the answers but I have honesty and I have direction and that feels like a million bucks.
Today I am grateful for being right where I am.
attitude is a choice
"I discovered I always have choices and sometimes it's only a choice of attitude."
What are you choosing today? Are you living in a pity pot? Are you trying to convince the world how bad you have it? Or do you see the correlation between your attitude about life and how life shows up? We can’t control how life plays out but we can choose to see it all as perfect. It’s perfectly imperfect and the more you are flexible about it the more you will enjoy it.
Today I am grateful for the mountain air that has now become part of my life.
What are you choosing today? Are you living in a pity pot? Are you trying to convince the world how bad you have it? Or do you see the correlation between your attitude about life and how life shows up? We can’t control how life plays out but we can choose to see it all as perfect. It’s perfectly imperfect and the more you are flexible about it the more you will enjoy it.
Today I am grateful for the mountain air that has now become part of my life.
choose peace
We don't see the things the way they are. We see things the way WE are.
Anais Nin
It’s Monday morning and I’m starting to feel normalized. It was quite a weekend. My emotions were all over the place starting with a visit to see Norma in the hospital on Friday. She had a very large kidney stone and they had to go in a do a procedure which they tried to avoid because of her age. It took a lot out of her and now I don’t know how much longer she will have with us. I had no idea and was taken by surprise when I saw her. It was very emotional and challenging. I then had to wake up at 4 am to head to Big Bear for my first shadowing as a facilitator. I was so nervous, worried that I would forget something. We worked with a group of 30 kids, all who have lost a parent. We were there to provide some challenges and most all for them to have fun. It was a success and felt great to be a part of.
I am starting to see maybe how this new endeavor will link in with coaching. I am starting to connect the dots. I feel like it’s starting to all make sense.
I am also realizing how much I have been living outside of my comfort zone. It’s natural to want to be comfortable and to do things that make you feel comfortable. But when you don’t step outside that comfort zone you don’t stretch. You have the most growth when you are uncomfortable. When you have a conversation that you are afraid to have or you do something you have never done before it heightens your awareness and makes you build new muscle. When I belay people on the high ropes course, I get to help them overcome something. They are completely out of their comfort zone and are challenged to go beyond what they thought possible. It’s amazing to facilitate and at the same time it challenges my ability.
I feel great which is sort of funny to say with so much going on around me. It just goes to show you that circumstances do not have to define you. I feel like I’m doing it. I’m walking the path I want to walk and as scary as it can be I feel empowered that I chose it.
I am so grateful for Agape.
Anais Nin
It’s Monday morning and I’m starting to feel normalized. It was quite a weekend. My emotions were all over the place starting with a visit to see Norma in the hospital on Friday. She had a very large kidney stone and they had to go in a do a procedure which they tried to avoid because of her age. It took a lot out of her and now I don’t know how much longer she will have with us. I had no idea and was taken by surprise when I saw her. It was very emotional and challenging. I then had to wake up at 4 am to head to Big Bear for my first shadowing as a facilitator. I was so nervous, worried that I would forget something. We worked with a group of 30 kids, all who have lost a parent. We were there to provide some challenges and most all for them to have fun. It was a success and felt great to be a part of.
I am starting to see maybe how this new endeavor will link in with coaching. I am starting to connect the dots. I feel like it’s starting to all make sense.
I am also realizing how much I have been living outside of my comfort zone. It’s natural to want to be comfortable and to do things that make you feel comfortable. But when you don’t step outside that comfort zone you don’t stretch. You have the most growth when you are uncomfortable. When you have a conversation that you are afraid to have or you do something you have never done before it heightens your awareness and makes you build new muscle. When I belay people on the high ropes course, I get to help them overcome something. They are completely out of their comfort zone and are challenged to go beyond what they thought possible. It’s amazing to facilitate and at the same time it challenges my ability.
I feel great which is sort of funny to say with so much going on around me. It just goes to show you that circumstances do not have to define you. I feel like I’m doing it. I’m walking the path I want to walk and as scary as it can be I feel empowered that I chose it.
I am so grateful for Agape.
strength
Either you run the day or the day runs you.
- Jim
I need to go and run my day so I’m just going to leave you with that quote and of course a gratitude.
Today I am grateful for the chance to facilitate the ropes course for children who have experienced loss. I am honored to have been chosen. I am grateful to have an amazing support group to help me through my fears.
- Jim
I need to go and run my day so I’m just going to leave you with that quote and of course a gratitude.
Today I am grateful for the chance to facilitate the ropes course for children who have experienced loss. I am honored to have been chosen. I am grateful to have an amazing support group to help me through my fears.
being vulnerable
Awareness is the greatest agent for change. Eckhart Tolle
If I’m going to write then I have to say it all, right? I can’t hold back simply because I’m concerned of how I will be perceived or how it will be taken.
I’m challenged right now. My ego is up in arms. The energy in the house is askew. And I’m still committed to the process of loving this relationship all the way through to its next evolution. It’s hard to stay centered in the midst of such change but I believe I can do it. She is moving out on the first and I want to available to this process. I believe that our love and commitment to one another can move us thru this transition in a way that helps us grow.
I just stepped aside from my blog to ask about the heaviness in the air. It was so uncomfortable. She spoke and then I spoke and we were both stuck. There’s that moment in a conversation when you just want to run from it and well I felt that every few minutes. You might be asking why would I put myself through that? We broke up so why engage in these conversations. I think these conversations are the key to my growth. It’s easy to walk away. I love this woman and I spent more than three years of my life with her. We trigger each other and we want to break through that. Who I am today is a different person because of this relationship. I have gained so much and have had to break through a lot of my own fears. I am so grateful for this process and to have a partner that’s willing to do it different. If you put your ego aside so much more will open up to you. Try it. Make today a day that you create with love and vulnerability to discover more about yourself. Let me know how it goes.
If I’m going to write then I have to say it all, right? I can’t hold back simply because I’m concerned of how I will be perceived or how it will be taken.
I’m challenged right now. My ego is up in arms. The energy in the house is askew. And I’m still committed to the process of loving this relationship all the way through to its next evolution. It’s hard to stay centered in the midst of such change but I believe I can do it. She is moving out on the first and I want to available to this process. I believe that our love and commitment to one another can move us thru this transition in a way that helps us grow.
I just stepped aside from my blog to ask about the heaviness in the air. It was so uncomfortable. She spoke and then I spoke and we were both stuck. There’s that moment in a conversation when you just want to run from it and well I felt that every few minutes. You might be asking why would I put myself through that? We broke up so why engage in these conversations. I think these conversations are the key to my growth. It’s easy to walk away. I love this woman and I spent more than three years of my life with her. We trigger each other and we want to break through that. Who I am today is a different person because of this relationship. I have gained so much and have had to break through a lot of my own fears. I am so grateful for this process and to have a partner that’s willing to do it different. If you put your ego aside so much more will open up to you. Try it. Make today a day that you create with love and vulnerability to discover more about yourself. Let me know how it goes.
shift in perception
Peace of mind only happens in the unknown. Rhonda Britten
I heard Rhonda say this the other night and it really stuck with me. If you think about it, you can’t have peace of mind when you’re stuck in what you know. When you are struggling with fear or uncertainty you are stuck in a story you have created. You have to break out of that to find peace. Peace comes from complete acceptance. When you accept everything as it is, right now, you can have your feelings whether they are sad or scared but have awareness that they are just feelings. They do not define you, they only define a state. So yes in the midst of despair you can be at peace. It might sound tricky but it’s just a shift in perception.
Something else Rhonda said stuck with me. She had a great analogy. Imagine that 1/3 of all people just loved you. They love you for who you are exactly right now without having to do anything. Now another 1/3 just don’t like you and they never will. The last third don’t really care, they are indifferent. Now most of us are trying so hard to perform and be accepted by that 2/3. We don’t even give attention to the 1/3. Why? Why do we try so hard to convince and why do we struggle so much with acceptance? We have this 1/3 that just wants the best for us. So what if you surrounded yourself with the 1/3 and gave back to the 1/3, how would that impact your life? I know some of you might immediately get upset that 1/3 doesn’t like you and I guess that’s the point. It’s just the way life is- to some you will be a superstar and to others maybe a nuisance. The question is can you be ok with that? Can you find relief that you don’t have to perform anymore? It gave me freedom when I heard that.
I just feel grateful for my new adventures. I am grateful that despite my fears that are so loud in my head, aren’t keeping me from moving forward.
I heard Rhonda say this the other night and it really stuck with me. If you think about it, you can’t have peace of mind when you’re stuck in what you know. When you are struggling with fear or uncertainty you are stuck in a story you have created. You have to break out of that to find peace. Peace comes from complete acceptance. When you accept everything as it is, right now, you can have your feelings whether they are sad or scared but have awareness that they are just feelings. They do not define you, they only define a state. So yes in the midst of despair you can be at peace. It might sound tricky but it’s just a shift in perception.
Something else Rhonda said stuck with me. She had a great analogy. Imagine that 1/3 of all people just loved you. They love you for who you are exactly right now without having to do anything. Now another 1/3 just don’t like you and they never will. The last third don’t really care, they are indifferent. Now most of us are trying so hard to perform and be accepted by that 2/3. We don’t even give attention to the 1/3. Why? Why do we try so hard to convince and why do we struggle so much with acceptance? We have this 1/3 that just wants the best for us. So what if you surrounded yourself with the 1/3 and gave back to the 1/3, how would that impact your life? I know some of you might immediately get upset that 1/3 doesn’t like you and I guess that’s the point. It’s just the way life is- to some you will be a superstar and to others maybe a nuisance. The question is can you be ok with that? Can you find relief that you don’t have to perform anymore? It gave me freedom when I heard that.
I just feel grateful for my new adventures. I am grateful that despite my fears that are so loud in my head, aren’t keeping me from moving forward.
opening up
"It is not what we get but who we become, what we contribute….that gives meaning to our lives." Anthony Robbins
I just spent four days with some truly amazing, generous and loving people. I am in awe of the experience and who we became as a group. It was an unlikely group of 15 who came together to be trained as facilitators. We climbed and jumped and laughed and belayed until we couldn’t belay anymore. It totally pulled me out of a daily grind that was concentrated on what was I doing with my life and put me solidly in a space of learning something so that I can contribute.
Its funny how we can get so focused on what we want out of life and lose focus on what we can contribute to life. I had been in a place of frustration about the life I had created. I kept thinking "how can I get from here to there?", while holding on tight to the box I was living in. I so needed this training. I needed to be challenged both mentally and physically. I needed to be outside of my comfort zone. I needed to sit in my own judgment and come to a place where I get to see my contribution and know that what I do really can make a difference.
I am creating my own way and getting so many great tools. I feel really blessed. It inspires me to think that these 15 people could be in a space together for 4 days and find so much commonality. It would have been easy to find what made us different and find things to separate us, but those things never came up. What we created was magical. We all want to make a difference on this planet and that is what we focused on.
I am so grateful for this blog to be able to share my experiences. We all want to live a harmonious existence. We all want to feel peace and I think we can all have it. It just takes letting go and opening up to the idea that who you are makes a difference. If you hold on to that and focus on being a contributor then life will get that much sweeter. So to anyone from Lodestone reading this, I am truly grateful to you and what you brought to the group. I am inspired and excited to work with you… squirrel…;)
Peace and blessings!
I just spent four days with some truly amazing, generous and loving people. I am in awe of the experience and who we became as a group. It was an unlikely group of 15 who came together to be trained as facilitators. We climbed and jumped and laughed and belayed until we couldn’t belay anymore. It totally pulled me out of a daily grind that was concentrated on what was I doing with my life and put me solidly in a space of learning something so that I can contribute.
Its funny how we can get so focused on what we want out of life and lose focus on what we can contribute to life. I had been in a place of frustration about the life I had created. I kept thinking "how can I get from here to there?", while holding on tight to the box I was living in. I so needed this training. I needed to be challenged both mentally and physically. I needed to be outside of my comfort zone. I needed to sit in my own judgment and come to a place where I get to see my contribution and know that what I do really can make a difference.
I am creating my own way and getting so many great tools. I feel really blessed. It inspires me to think that these 15 people could be in a space together for 4 days and find so much commonality. It would have been easy to find what made us different and find things to separate us, but those things never came up. What we created was magical. We all want to make a difference on this planet and that is what we focused on.
I am so grateful for this blog to be able to share my experiences. We all want to live a harmonious existence. We all want to feel peace and I think we can all have it. It just takes letting go and opening up to the idea that who you are makes a difference. If you hold on to that and focus on being a contributor then life will get that much sweeter. So to anyone from Lodestone reading this, I am truly grateful to you and what you brought to the group. I am inspired and excited to work with you… squirrel…;)
Peace and blessings!
Taking the leap...
Mornin everybody! Just woke up from my first night at camp. ;). The first day went well except for my body giving out on me. I feel like its breaking down and I have to build it back up.
The car ride up was great. I met two wonderful people and by the time we arrived we had already bonded. So yes my comfort zone would have gotten me here alone and "safe", but I would have missed the chance to connect. Yesterday was a lot about comfort zone and growth zone. I jumped off the high platform and reached for the trapeze. We had to declare what we were leaving behind and what we are reaching for. I left behind my fear of not being good enough and jumped towards my career of writing and coaching. It was a pretty great moment. We've done some great stuff. Lots of team building. My judgments are at a minimum. I'm open to receive and be a part something and see where that leads me.
What are you trying? Can you leave your comfort zone?
Today I am grateful that I got some sleep and that I woke up in this beautiful place. The sun shining and snow is everywhere.
The car ride up was great. I met two wonderful people and by the time we arrived we had already bonded. So yes my comfort zone would have gotten me here alone and "safe", but I would have missed the chance to connect. Yesterday was a lot about comfort zone and growth zone. I jumped off the high platform and reached for the trapeze. We had to declare what we were leaving behind and what we are reaching for. I left behind my fear of not being good enough and jumped towards my career of writing and coaching. It was a pretty great moment. We've done some great stuff. Lots of team building. My judgments are at a minimum. I'm open to receive and be a part something and see where that leads me.
What are you trying? Can you leave your comfort zone?
Today I am grateful that I got some sleep and that I woke up in this beautiful place. The sun shining and snow is everywhere.
new adventures
To go against the dominant thinking of your friends, of most of the people you see every day, is perhaps the most difficult act of heroism you can perform.
Theodore H. White
Breaking free from what is expected of you and acting on your own intuition-- now that’s living. But why don’t we do it? Why do we get stuck? How many people do you know that are doing what they love? How many people step outside the dominant thinking? It’s hard. It’s so much easier to fall in line and do what everyone else is doing. You don’t have to be challenged and you experience only small amounts of fear.
I feel challenged right now. I feel nervous and excited. I’m embarking on something new and I don’t know the outcome. And now I just agreed to carpool with two people that I don’t know. Me in my comfort zone doesn’t want that at all. I want to be in control and ride up by myself and listen to my music. But the part of me that is in this for the experience, knows better. Step outside what is comfortable and embrace a new experience. How many times do you say no to something because it is outside of your comfort zone? Break free from who you were yesterday. Today is a new day and you can be anyone you want to be.
Today I am grateful for my new adventure.
Theodore H. White
Breaking free from what is expected of you and acting on your own intuition-- now that’s living. But why don’t we do it? Why do we get stuck? How many people do you know that are doing what they love? How many people step outside the dominant thinking? It’s hard. It’s so much easier to fall in line and do what everyone else is doing. You don’t have to be challenged and you experience only small amounts of fear.
I feel challenged right now. I feel nervous and excited. I’m embarking on something new and I don’t know the outcome. And now I just agreed to carpool with two people that I don’t know. Me in my comfort zone doesn’t want that at all. I want to be in control and ride up by myself and listen to my music. But the part of me that is in this for the experience, knows better. Step outside what is comfortable and embrace a new experience. How many times do you say no to something because it is outside of your comfort zone? Break free from who you were yesterday. Today is a new day and you can be anyone you want to be.
Today I am grateful for my new adventure.
feeling vibrant
“If you are living out of a sense of obligation you are slave.” Wayne Dyer
I’m leaving Thursday morning for my ropes course facilitator training. I feel like I’m going to camp. I’m excited to be doing something so different than what I have been doing. I’m excited to be stretching and I’m nervous to leave my comfort zone. I know I’m on the right track. Every time I have felt this in my life it was followed by a major breakthrough.
I share this because leaving your comfort zone isn’t easy and sometimes it’s just what we need to shake up what is stagnant in our lives. It’s hard to know what you really want in life when you’re living inside of a box. If you are living out of some sense of obligation to whomever or whatever then you are not living your life. It is powerful when you can choose your life and everything in it because you choose it. Sometimes you need to break up the hard edges of expectation and routine. Its like when you get a really great massage and it might cause you some pain in the moment because the really great massage is breaking apart that which is stagnant in your body. A great massage gives you more mobility and flexibility because it broke apart that which was stuck.
Sometimes you need to do this with your life. Sometimes you need to step outside of what is usual and find your vitality, find that which make you feel alive and vibrant. When you find that you find the essence of you really are. Everything else is a life you accepted as reality. Do not confuse the two. Today go out of your comfort zone. Find your joy and let’s work on living more of it. I’m in, are you?
Today I am grateful for opportunities in my life to be more of my authentic self.
I’m leaving Thursday morning for my ropes course facilitator training. I feel like I’m going to camp. I’m excited to be doing something so different than what I have been doing. I’m excited to be stretching and I’m nervous to leave my comfort zone. I know I’m on the right track. Every time I have felt this in my life it was followed by a major breakthrough.
I share this because leaving your comfort zone isn’t easy and sometimes it’s just what we need to shake up what is stagnant in our lives. It’s hard to know what you really want in life when you’re living inside of a box. If you are living out of some sense of obligation to whomever or whatever then you are not living your life. It is powerful when you can choose your life and everything in it because you choose it. Sometimes you need to break up the hard edges of expectation and routine. Its like when you get a really great massage and it might cause you some pain in the moment because the really great massage is breaking apart that which is stagnant in your body. A great massage gives you more mobility and flexibility because it broke apart that which was stuck.
Sometimes you need to do this with your life. Sometimes you need to step outside of what is usual and find your vitality, find that which make you feel alive and vibrant. When you find that you find the essence of you really are. Everything else is a life you accepted as reality. Do not confuse the two. Today go out of your comfort zone. Find your joy and let’s work on living more of it. I’m in, are you?
Today I am grateful for opportunities in my life to be more of my authentic self.
in the stillness
Silence is the voice of the convinced. Loudness is the voice of those who want to convince themselves.
Dagobert Runes
This resonated with me. Maybe because I’m learning to be more and more still and see more truth when I stop trying to convince myself of something. I think about a loud argument where two people are just going at it, one trying to convince the other of their rightness and neither hearing a word. When you’re trying so hard it’s usually because you yourself are not convinced. There’s no space when it’s so loud, whether it’s loud in your head or loud by your voice.
I really think this is why finding your peaceful center can heal your life. When you can step back and stop trying to be right and start trying to make your life work, there’s a shift. This is your life after all and simply proving that you are right and someone else is wrong does not give you peace, it gives you momentary satisfaction. Soon you will need to find something else to make wrong. It’s a vicious cycle and it’s easy to find support to stay in it. You can always find someone to agree with you and buy into your story. You can always find someone to say that what he did was horrible or what she did was just wrong. If you want to get to a peaceful place in your life, than it can’t be about right or wrong. Our relationships are all a work in progress and no one escapes that. It takes two people to create it and two people to change it. It’s your choice of how you want to look at it.
Finding your stillness will give you strength. It will empower you to make better decisions and give you the courage you need to take responsibility for your life and everything that goes on in it.
Today I am grateful that all my needs are met.
Dagobert Runes
This resonated with me. Maybe because I’m learning to be more and more still and see more truth when I stop trying to convince myself of something. I think about a loud argument where two people are just going at it, one trying to convince the other of their rightness and neither hearing a word. When you’re trying so hard it’s usually because you yourself are not convinced. There’s no space when it’s so loud, whether it’s loud in your head or loud by your voice.
I really think this is why finding your peaceful center can heal your life. When you can step back and stop trying to be right and start trying to make your life work, there’s a shift. This is your life after all and simply proving that you are right and someone else is wrong does not give you peace, it gives you momentary satisfaction. Soon you will need to find something else to make wrong. It’s a vicious cycle and it’s easy to find support to stay in it. You can always find someone to agree with you and buy into your story. You can always find someone to say that what he did was horrible or what she did was just wrong. If you want to get to a peaceful place in your life, than it can’t be about right or wrong. Our relationships are all a work in progress and no one escapes that. It takes two people to create it and two people to change it. It’s your choice of how you want to look at it.
Finding your stillness will give you strength. It will empower you to make better decisions and give you the courage you need to take responsibility for your life and everything that goes on in it.
Today I am grateful that all my needs are met.
authentic living
"Living up to an image that you have of yourself or that other people have of you is inauthentic living."
Eckhart Tolle
Are you living an inauthentic life? Are you busy worrying about what other people think? If you are focused on becoming something based on someone else's expectations then you are not living your life. Your life is yours alone. What is it that you want? If no one else is looking or expecting you to be something, what is it that you want to be? What would an authentic life look like? Think about that today.
Today I am grateful for the clarity I feel in my relationships. Communication is the key to freedom.
Eckhart Tolle
Are you living an inauthentic life? Are you busy worrying about what other people think? If you are focused on becoming something based on someone else's expectations then you are not living your life. Your life is yours alone. What is it that you want? If no one else is looking or expecting you to be something, what is it that you want to be? What would an authentic life look like? Think about that today.
Today I am grateful for the clarity I feel in my relationships. Communication is the key to freedom.
stop the noise and turn on the music
The more I learn and grow, the more I am assured that I don’t know anything.
The more I can let go of having the answers the more freedom I can access.
The more I can be available and flexible the more I can be of service.
When I can just be and have the freedom to be whatever I need to be in this moment ahhh I can breathe. I can be whatever I want. I feel free in this moment and that’s all that matters, this moment! Can you live moment to moment? Can you tap into your freedom to express yourself and be who you were born to be? Just in this moment? Don’t think about the next moment or tomorrow. Can you put some music on in this moment and feel it? Do it. Just be in the right now. Put everything down. Turn it up and allow yourself to be free.
I am grateful, so grateful for the music.
The more I can let go of having the answers the more freedom I can access.
The more I can be available and flexible the more I can be of service.
When I can just be and have the freedom to be whatever I need to be in this moment ahhh I can breathe. I can be whatever I want. I feel free in this moment and that’s all that matters, this moment! Can you live moment to moment? Can you tap into your freedom to express yourself and be who you were born to be? Just in this moment? Don’t think about the next moment or tomorrow. Can you put some music on in this moment and feel it? Do it. Just be in the right now. Put everything down. Turn it up and allow yourself to be free.
I am grateful, so grateful for the music.
together
Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great ones make you feel that you too, can become great.
Mark Twain
Someone said to me that I really changed up the format yesterday. I was off the cuff, in stream of consciousness just expressing myself. This is me. Sometimes I am formatted and sometimes I just need to be a run on sentence. Sometimes I just have to express what is-- to get a place where I can figure out the whys and the why nots.
If something in here helps you then I feel honored to be of service. My life has always been a quest to uncover and challenge myself to be more authentic and vulnerable to what it is to be human. We are all in this together and if you choose to see it that way then you will find comfort in knowing that you are not alone. Whatever is going on in your life that is making you feel disconnected or alone is only in your mind? You are never alone and you can always find your connection to yourself but you have to be willing and open. I am here to remind you.
I am here to tell you that my life is shifting and there are many uncertainties AND despite any of it, I can find peace. I can express my sadness, I can talk about my resentments and my frustrations and at the end of it I can find peace. You can too. Life can be life AND you can find your center. It doesn’t have to be either. It’s all simultaneous. Feel your pain and know that your joy is right there. Don’t limit how life can show up for you. Be honest with yourself, be honest with your partner, your friends and anyone else that you are withholding from. Know that in the sharing is freedom. If you are willing to give up being right for the cause of being a better human being then things will start to shift. This is your gig and how it plays out depends on your willingness to be your authentic self.
I myself, am a work in progress.
I am grateful for this day. I am grateful that I have so much love in my life and the forms are irrelevant. I am grateful for every one of you.
Mark Twain
Someone said to me that I really changed up the format yesterday. I was off the cuff, in stream of consciousness just expressing myself. This is me. Sometimes I am formatted and sometimes I just need to be a run on sentence. Sometimes I just have to express what is-- to get a place where I can figure out the whys and the why nots.
If something in here helps you then I feel honored to be of service. My life has always been a quest to uncover and challenge myself to be more authentic and vulnerable to what it is to be human. We are all in this together and if you choose to see it that way then you will find comfort in knowing that you are not alone. Whatever is going on in your life that is making you feel disconnected or alone is only in your mind? You are never alone and you can always find your connection to yourself but you have to be willing and open. I am here to remind you.
I am here to tell you that my life is shifting and there are many uncertainties AND despite any of it, I can find peace. I can express my sadness, I can talk about my resentments and my frustrations and at the end of it I can find peace. You can too. Life can be life AND you can find your center. It doesn’t have to be either. It’s all simultaneous. Feel your pain and know that your joy is right there. Don’t limit how life can show up for you. Be honest with yourself, be honest with your partner, your friends and anyone else that you are withholding from. Know that in the sharing is freedom. If you are willing to give up being right for the cause of being a better human being then things will start to shift. This is your gig and how it plays out depends on your willingness to be your authentic self.
I myself, am a work in progress.
I am grateful for this day. I am grateful that I have so much love in my life and the forms are irrelevant. I am grateful for every one of you.
love and family
I'm on the plane flying back from Louisiana. It's the first moment that I could write. To say I was nonstop is an understatement. It was such a whirlwind of emotions. Being there feeling my breakup intensely, feeling the issues of my family, the confronting idea of a job that no longer serves me. There was so much going on and at the same time it was an amazing time with my family. When I am with all of my brothers and sisters at the same time it gives me such joy that I want to hold on to it tight and never let go. I always felt this and I especially remember when I was a kid, being the youngest and getting so excited when everyone was coming home for the holidays. I felt completeness. It's nice to know after all these years that I still get the same feeling. It's nice to have the connection.
Today was such a struggle for me. I was super emotional and felt like I was dealing with so many things coming at me. I felt angry, sad, resentful, and completely emotional. I know a lot was driven by pms but it was only bringing up all the things lying below the surface. I have a tendency to go and go and figure I will process it all later. The truth is I'm sad. My relationship of over 3 years is changing and I want it to not be painful. I want her stay in my life and I don't want to feel the separation. I don't want to feel the pain of her not being my person. I know that it’s these moments that make me a stronger person. I want to be present in all of it. I want to talk through it and share my pain. I know there is freedom when you meet something and walk thru it. Today my humanness wants to dodge the pain. My ego wants to have ownership and mind wants to rationalize everything. But my heart, my heart wants to find truth. My heart wants to feel complete in the incompleteness. I want to stay in the truth and the truth is that if I stay in the love and out of the ego then I can have freedom. I am my own experiment.
I’m grateful for my family and the time I had with them. I am grateful for Cecilia and that we can love each other through this. I am grateful that Jeff is sober and here with me.
Today was such a struggle for me. I was super emotional and felt like I was dealing with so many things coming at me. I felt angry, sad, resentful, and completely emotional. I know a lot was driven by pms but it was only bringing up all the things lying below the surface. I have a tendency to go and go and figure I will process it all later. The truth is I'm sad. My relationship of over 3 years is changing and I want it to not be painful. I want her stay in my life and I don't want to feel the separation. I don't want to feel the pain of her not being my person. I know that it’s these moments that make me a stronger person. I want to be present in all of it. I want to talk through it and share my pain. I know there is freedom when you meet something and walk thru it. Today my humanness wants to dodge the pain. My ego wants to have ownership and mind wants to rationalize everything. But my heart, my heart wants to find truth. My heart wants to feel complete in the incompleteness. I want to stay in the truth and the truth is that if I stay in the love and out of the ego then I can have freedom. I am my own experiment.
I’m grateful for my family and the time I had with them. I am grateful for Cecilia and that we can love each other through this. I am grateful that Jeff is sober and here with me.
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