Intention

"Let go of what you think life should be so you can experience the life you have."
Rhonda Britten

Here I am day one of my August commitment to write everyday no matter what.  So excuse me if I stumble a bit.  I just have felt so out of whack and feeling like I can’t quite get out of my head and on to paper.  I will keep typing and have an intention to break through my own self doubt, my own walls of sabotage.  I don’t think I am alone in this self defeating conversation.  It’s just amazing how you can be so clear in life and feel so impassioned only to come to a place of doubt.  I want to get angry when I feel it.  I want to just get myself back to the place where everything was crystal clear.  Then I remember that this is all part of it.  I remember when I place myself in situations where I am forced to stop, like in meditation yesterday I get it.  I was never so grateful for the silence.  I was thirsty and willing to sit still.  So this quote holds so much power for me today.  This part of me that wants to look ahead or get to the next chapter is stopped in my tracks, only to realize this is the rich part.  This struggle to get there or feel connected to myself, it’s only because I want to deny today or the feeling of uncertainty.  I am reminded that the closer I get to my true destiny the more road blocks I will experience and the more uncertain my mind will seem.  It’s funny how just writing about it gives me a sense of calm.
Today I am grateful for my amazing home and love I am surrounded with.  Peggy, LeeAnn, Crystal, Andrea, thank you for taking this journey with me.  Life will never be the same having met you.  I feel blessed.