where do you stand?

The chief cause of failure and unhappiness is trading what we want most for what we want at the moment.
Anonymous

I can relate.  Instant gratification always seems like a good idea until you realize that it wasn't.  Being back in school is a challenge to me everyday.  It makes me feel so uncomfortable to be in a place where I am not in control, meaning I just have to ride this out and I can't make it go faster and I can't go in and out.  I am constantly challenged with my age and where I should be and why I should be and so on and so on.  I know this ultimately is great for so many reasons, the obvious sure...education, achievement but I think even more important is commitment and perseverance and ultimately understanding and empathy for those that I will coach and support on their journeys to rediscover themselves.  I really feel like I have been going through so much internal questioning about everything I do and wondering if its the right thing or if I should change course.  It's louder than ever in my head and even more so now that I live in a place that supports the new path I have chosen.  It's been so hard to write because I have felt so scattered and unsure.  I forget that - that its probably the best time to write.  When I write I feel strong and I remember who I am.  thanks for listening

Today I am grateful for all of my great teachers, starting with my mom.  I am blessed and have always been.

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