Remembering

I guess when I don’t know where to start, I start with the Four Agreements:

The Four Agreements are:

1. Be Impeccable with your Word: Speak with integrity. Say only what you mean. Avoid using the Word to speak against yourself or to gossip about others. Use the power of your Word in the direction of truth and love.

2. Don’t Take Anything Personally
    Nothing others do is because of you. What others say and do is a projection of their own reality, their own dream. When you are immune to the opinions and actions of others, you won’t be the victim of needless suffering.

3. Don’t Make Assumptions
    Find the courage to ask questions and to express what you really want. Communicate with others as clearly as you can to avoid misunderstandings, sadness and drama. With just this one agreement, you can completely transform your life.

4. Always Do Your Best
Your best is going to change from moment to moment; it will be different when you are healthy as opposed to sick. Under any circumstance, simply do your best, and you will avoid self-judgment, self-abuse, and regret.


Miguel Ruiz


I feel like I can breathe when I read these agreements.  I feel lighter.  In taking responsibility for my life I am freed up from the drama and distractions that have nothing to do with me.  Don't Make Assumptions is the one that I think of often.  It's what I can see clearly and it's impact on the world.  The world is run by so many assumptions.  In my little corner of the world I strive to be clear and concise.  I want to be a woman of my word and live in a world of clarity.  I think clarity and peace go hand in hand.  As my life has gotten more fine tuned, it's also gotten more confusing for me.
In the quiet I get to see my struggle with where I am.  I think I should be further or better or something.  It's painful to just feel it and know that I am just where I am.  I feel like I am really rambling tonight and I don't want to edit it or polish it.  I feel so much inside me that it hurts and I want to stop typing, I want to give in or up whichever will make life easier.  I have such a great life and all the beauty and love a person could ask for yet I'm not using my gift.  I have felt so far away from the part of me that is clawing its way out of me now.  I don't feel like a writer today.  But I know something is trying to happen.  I know like exercise I just have to show up for it and stop being afraid of not being good enough or enough period.

Today I am grateful for Cecilia's support and encouragement to keep writing.