If you have a chance to look back on your life, you’ve got to ask this question: “What difference have I made? Was my life just about what I wanted, or did I contribute and make a difference to others? Jerome Downes
Jerome was one of many great teachers in my life and yesterday I attended his celebration of life service. Many things came up for me and I hope that I can put into words the magnitude of my insights that I got yesterday. I will try and if nothing else it will be an interesting week of writing.
First I must acknowledge my lack of writing. I have been having some personal challenges which I found difficult to write about before working them out a bit. My girlfriend and I have decided to change the dynamics of our relationship. We love each other very much and want to stay committed to our friendship. It’s been hard to have this blog and write about my journey and truths when I couldn’t even talk about what I was feeling with my partner. Sometimes it’s just really hard to communicate. And that’s what makes us human. The thing is that we all have something that challenges us and we struggle and we contemplate on what is working and what isn’t. Sometimes we get stuck and don’t know how to make a move and sometimes we just need to stand still and see that everything is perfect just the way it is. My point is that life is anything but predictable or understandable in a way that you can coast on what you learned yesterday. There’s no coasting. You never have it in the bag either. We are unpredictable beings and the best thing you can do is to stay in communication. It’s like I say it and I know and I still struggle with it. I can only try to do better.
Time to get to work. Tomorrow I will share more about the celebration of life and my insights.
Today I am grateful for a new beginning. I am grateful for Cecilia and the wonderful human being that she is.
Welcome back Ashley. This blog is a place that I come to gain insight into my own struggle with myself. To hear your truth always helps me with that struggle. It takes a special person to reveal that which turns their innermost wheels and in doing so reach out to others. This is why this place is so valuable to me and I am sure to the other folks who come here to read it. I want to say that I will always support you on this journey that you are on and I will try to give back as much as I have been given. I know change is not easy, but positive change is synonymous with growth and that is what we all endeavor to attain. So once again welcome back and know that I am here to support both you and Cecilia during this time. I await your new insights and discoveries this week and beyond. Always stay true to your greatness. Excelsior! :)
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