Being on the water all day yesterday was such a gift. Learning to surf with a Professional surfer was even more amazing. How many times in our adult lives are we open to learning something new? I realized out there on the water that I don't honor my desires. So much so that I don't even know what they are anymore. I have been so busy trying to create something that I lost site of those things that make me feel alive inside. Being on the water taps into that. As a child I spent most of my time swimming or skiing and as an adult I put it away. Much like we put our toys away as children. How many things in your life have you left behind because you have more serious things to deal with? We want to white knuckle our way through life sometimes to get through the hard parts.
That's the message that was taught. Just get through it. Well I think something is missing. The very part of ourselves that feels compelled to be playful and learn something new is the part that will free you. The missing piece to get through the current tough time is stepping outside of it and tapping into a different part of you that is ageless.
As I was on the water I felt that burning desire within me that wants to embrace learning something new. I was committed to the process and no matter how tired I felt, I was moved by the idea that I am a surfer. It was all a metaphor for something much deeper within me. I tapped into the part of me that knows I can do anything I put my attention on. It's different than the part of me that thinks I can make anything happen. Because I am definitely someone that will kill myself making something happen. This was different, it was a gentle strong tug. It pulled me forward. I am getting it. I really am, there is a distinction between being pushed to do something and being pulled towards it. If I am flexible and available for what is possible in my life then there is no struggle. I just have to show up for it. The details will simply unfold.
What is your burning desire? Can you allow yourself the time and space to investigate that question?
Today, I am showing up with excitement and enthusiasm for my amazing life. I am grateful for the opportunity to learn something new.
Good one Ash...thanks for the accolades. That is so cool that you can see the "backside" of surfing, by that I mean the gifts, they are endless. The ocean will always give back in gentle and rough ways as you have experienced. It is my burning life long desire to be in the water and surfing like I do so I guess after reading this entry I am feeling so lucky and blessed to have found my lifetime passion. There are a few other things I would like to do with my time, and for those I always say I will have time later after checking the waves. Well the truth is I never get to them because I am fulfilled in the water. Maybe that is why surfers primarily surf. It is a constant craving with limitless offerings......Karen
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